I have never ever felt more âuntethered,â lost, unbound, unwound or weirded out in my whole 26 year old mfâing LIFE. But itâs ok! And Iâll explain lol.
The ONLY tangible shit keeping me afloat is the fact that SZA is going on tour in March and I MIGHT BE ABLE TO AFFORD IT? IDK remains to be seen. ANYWAYS, people its time to post some thoughts as this INSANE and wild year of 2022 is finally at its close.
A close friend of mine asked me, âhow would you describe your year in a few words.â THAT is a F************cking QUESTION! Hereâs what I said: complex, confusing, challenging and bittersweet.
Not exactly a chipper description. However, its just honest. I had some killer good times and incredible highlights truly. Going places Iâll never forget and living unforgettable moments. SO with that, letâs start with what we learned this year (âweâ being me and my good friend anxiety).Â
This year I learned more than anything: HUMILITY AND WHAT IT MEANS TO BE MORE HUMBLE. This statement is crucial to personal growth because sometimes you have a plan and then life says f*ck YOU i donât think so! and then youâre slapped in the face with redirecting and reevaluating your life (as my wise old man would say). Having gone through MANY ups and downs, career changes and jobs this year on top of PA school rejections, has truly made me stop and smell the â¨new pathway to idk whereâ¨In all seriousness, I learned the importance of: being okay with TAKING AN L (for those of you who donât relate to this slang it simply means âbeing ok with taking a lossâ such as not achieving your dreams or something lol). âđź
NEXT UP: HOW TO HUSTLE FOR MY GAWDDAMN MONEY. This one is near and dear to my heart (far from my wallet) because this is the big year that I not only came off moms tit (and her kush insurance plan) BUT was so in between jobs that I had to hustle and grind just to keep myself afloat in more ways than one. I worked to discover local resources, side hustles and budgeting tactics. Delivery driving, donating plasma and working part time at a karaoke bar wasnât glamorous but it kept my ass wiped and I had food on the table. THAT BEING SAID: this next year is all about struggling less. However, there is beauty in the struggle. I learned a lot about how to survive and take care of sh*t.Â
FINALLY: I leaned into my strengths. I tried new things (hip hop dance specifically, I still royaly suck at cooking) and gained confidence. I worked to better myself and find out more about what I want and deserve. Quite honestly folks, sometimes just seeing some growth in yourself such as this is enough to feel proud of yourself. NEVER FORGET to recognize your growth and achievements no matter how small you think they are. We are always evolving and thus far i think that is literally the key to life.
SO NOW we get to the good shitđđ˝WTF are my resolutions or whatever???
In truth, Iâm very proud as they are really realistic and tangible things. When making your resolution list (if you are someone who does this whether its written or mentally noted), MAKE 100% SURE they are things you can realistically accomplish. My blog was on my list for 2022 and check it out YOU are reading MY words! đ¤Ş
Here are 5 real items from my list that I chose after reflecting on my year:
1 Get my EMT certification
2 take a self defense class
3 start my Spanish classes
4 learn to not lash out when struggling emotionally
5 start new creative project
Now this isnât my full list, some of the other sh*t is aligned with emotional & spiritual growth but hereâs the thing. Taking hold of tangible goals and working to bring them to fruition will allow you to grow naturally. As we overcome obstacles and do things, we create space for learning and growth (as I discuss in previous posts), 2022 has confirmed this for me more than any other year of life. DO NOT GIVE UP. Yes, its corny but our goals, strengths, ideas, and gifts give us purpose for each year, each day and each moment. We are here and we are now. Our goals and resolutions, our tomorrowâŚ.it all matters, regardless of how f*cking dumb the world is acting (throwback moment to the Will Smith bitchslap making national news only to be followed by the Roe v Wade global DISASTERâŚ.you KNOW i could pull a million trillion other examplesđ).
In closing, I want to say THANK YOUđ Thank you for my readers, my supporters and my listeners. Yâall give me hope and strength, you give me purpose to keep writing my heart out and I am forever grateful for this platform to be me, who I truly am. SO I challenge you my readers to raise your wine, sprite, non-alcoholic beer, kombucha or ice water to 2023. Maybe we make this year our b*tch because we could seriously use just a really f*cking good solid ass year.
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