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Nose dive…? Jump? Idk I can’t smell shit.

Posted on by tjoroski

Allergy szn b*tchesssss!! In a dramatic turn of events, I am channeling my PA program rejections (4 out, 4 to go) into proactive energy working at at karaoke bar making significantly less money!!! Yay!!!! Who knew. Life has been this: applied for schools, left my BULLSH*T medical assistant job, was denied unemployment benefits, anddddd became a hostess ayeeeeee…

It’s been land of the lost, limbo narnia, unsure nation 2.0… BUT I do have a new addiction called “DoorDashing.” LOL. Literally it is saving my ass and paying my credit card minimums 10/10 recommend (Instacart can suck a d*ck). SO YEAH, here we are a month shy of me losing my parents insurance benefits for good and here I am sniffling as the leaves change, checking IDs and trying not to eat my weight in free chicken nuggets. It’s definitely spooky season bc I’m scared lol.

It’s been a trying time of accepting the present moment and trying my best to find peace WITHIN IT AHHH *practice what you preach.* So, ya know I’ve had time to process things that have happened while being 25 years young. I’ve been able to walk my dog longer, catch up on tv, read a lil (like a tiny teeny bit), see my friends, manicure my man’s eyebrows, wash my hair more often etc. The silver lining here is time. Time doesn’t pay the bills but it is priceless. This period of my life is the much needed slow down I’ve been desperate for.

Moving forward I feel this: my right now moments lead into my tomorrow moments and everything can change at any moment. Things haven’t necessarily gone my way for a higher purpose, like annoying, but I get it. I mean I’ve been given the gift of time and sleep which is more than I’ve been able to have in awhile. I’m learning how to value myself in ways I didn’t recognize before. So friends, I raise my hard kombucha today for the good sake of tomorrow and what it will bring. I challenge you all to do the same!

She forgot her Gucci flip flops but time is on her side 😤

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Mission Impossible

Posted on by tjoroski

Someone real once said, “the days where you feel the most unmotivated are the days that matter the most.”

THAT is some hardcore sh*t. And I’ll tell you why.

The other day I felt so tired, lost, anxious, confused, annoyed, frustrated, hungry, tired, mad etc. In short, I felt unmotivated as hell. Sitting in my car literally thinking about how on Earth I’m supposed to do sh*t, know stuff and be somebody. I do what everyone tells you to do, “sit with your feelings you’re supposed to feel it” yeah well that was agony because my overthinking brain drove me insane for like 45 minutes while I bounced from do I have a future to what kind of burrito I feel like having. I felt unmotivated because I just didn’t feel a pull and I could care less in that moment.

By pull I mean passion, desire, want. Like what do I like? What do I wanna do? I wanna help people. Ok b*tch but how?? IDK. When you have a plan that was supposed to turn out a certain way or happen in the way you imagined but then..well..doesn’t…its a BAD FEELING, because then you’re like “oh sh*t now what.” I help ill people and have a sedan so I guess that’s a good start but my gawd.

When I feel like this (and lately it’s been often), I think back to what I wrote about in my past blogs: finding growth in the space we create for ourselves & putting one foot in front of the other. For example, my job and/or interactions I have with people, are the stimulus I encounter each day. The response to this stimuli is needing rest, food, other social interaction, emotions etc. The space I create for myself is inside my selfish moments (not always a bad thing). For example, my ultimate space creator is yoga, this blog, or time with my bf & dog. It could also be tv, organizing my home, eating the vegan pastry I bought or online shopping. In this space, I grow. My patience improves, my body heals, my mind chills tf out, I hydrate, I might learn something about myself and what I like.

This space I create then goes on to positively affect my stimuli, response, and ultimately how motivated I am to keep going. So, the days I feel the most unmotivated are the days I try to step away from all that sh*t weighing me down and I just try to create space. This is what’s important. Us as individuals in each individual moment. Our moment’s make us inherently better for ourselves and others.

SO YEAH. It’s true. The days where you feel the most unmotivated ARE in fact the days that matter the most. Take care of yourselves, because unmotivated you needs love too. No matter what, you’ll wake up tomorrow, but maybe it’ll be with more rest and level headedness. You might even wake up motivated to do something new like quit your sh*tty job or create a blog.

Lost in thot.