Tag: manifest

Posted in lost, motivation, peace, planning, youth

Nose dive…? Jump? Idk I can’t smell shit.

Posted on by tjoroski

Allergy szn b*tchesssss!! In a dramatic turn of events, I am channeling my PA program rejections (4 out, 4 to go) into proactive energy working at at karaoke bar making significantly less money!!! Yay!!!! Who knew. Life has been this: applied for schools, left my BULLSH*T medical assistant job, was denied unemployment benefits, anddddd became a hostess ayeeeeee…

It’s been land of the lost, limbo narnia, unsure nation 2.0… BUT I do have a new addiction called “DoorDashing.” LOL. Literally it is saving my ass and paying my credit card minimums 10/10 recommend (Instacart can suck a d*ck). SO YEAH, here we are a month shy of me losing my parents insurance benefits for good and here I am sniffling as the leaves change, checking IDs and trying not to eat my weight in free chicken nuggets. It’s definitely spooky season bc I’m scared lol.

It’s been a trying time of accepting the present moment and trying my best to find peace WITHIN IT AHHH *practice what you preach.* So, ya know I’ve had time to process things that have happened while being 25 years young. I’ve been able to walk my dog longer, catch up on tv, read a lil (like a tiny teeny bit), see my friends, manicure my man’s eyebrows, wash my hair more often etc. The silver lining here is time. Time doesn’t pay the bills but it is priceless. This period of my life is the much needed slow down I’ve been desperate for.

Moving forward I feel this: my right now moments lead into my tomorrow moments and everything can change at any moment. Things haven’t necessarily gone my way for a higher purpose, like annoying, but I get it. I mean I’ve been given the gift of time and sleep which is more than I’ve been able to have in awhile. I’m learning how to value myself in ways I didn’t recognize before. So friends, I raise my hard kombucha today for the good sake of tomorrow and what it will bring. I challenge you all to do the same!

She forgot her Gucci flip flops but time is on her side 😤

Posted in dance, motivation, youth

Yo DJ Play My Song

Posted on by tjoroski

YOOOOO! Big news. Just arrived at manifestation station. Im moving!.. to a different part of town LOL.

I literally stood in the center of my 5×5 apartment and literally felt the ick. I was cringing and overwhelmed about how much sh*t I have. But thats when I realized, “oh wait, I dont have that much sh*t, my apartment is just suited for someone who doesnt dream of a walk in closet with a table and chairs.” TBH Its been a long time coming. Three years in a downtown metro, three years of bums at my door, no peephole and a peeping tom neighbor. Thats a long f*cking time to have no dishwasher and praying I make it back from the basement every time I wash my d e l i c a t e s for $1.75 in communo washer/dryer🤮.

I am the type of person who gets uncomfortable with something and then wants to change it instantaneously. A GO GETTER? if you will lmao. I cannot stand in one space for too long looking at the same thing or doing the same things whether it be mentally, emotionally or physically. Thats why Ive lived in many places and had so many jobs (well that and the fact my managers have been nothing short of bullsh*t). Its why I like medicine bc it can be LOCA but Im down for the ride. So even though Ive been at my place for about 3 (thousand) years, Im always on the hunt ready for my next “thing.”

I will say tho, Im proud of myself ya know? It takes a lot as a young, stupid, adult to MOVE. I mean over the years Ive had to learn what a change of address is and how your billing address is connected to your debit card and if you dont change that when you move then your bills get f*cked. OR OR OR how you need renters insurance and an electric company for power and wifi and *heavy breathing*

Im also working on finding a new…j o b…..LOLOLOL. Yes again.. I just. I cant..idk. Like finding a new job and place to enjoy before PA school (should I even get in 🤞🏼), seems crazy no? But then again, its literally MY journey. I will change anything and everything I want to for however long if it makes ME happy. We are truly the cReAtOrS oF oUr OwN dEsTiNy😂 but fr fr I want a better quality of life so, b*tch you had best believe Im gonna GO GET IT………. regardless of how broke I might be later.

Its entirely a leap of faith as most things are. But if we cant trust ourselves and take risks, then WTF are we even doing? So if you need a change and youre worried, anxious, scared, night sweats, ugly crying, hyperventilating then SIS take it from me: when you take charge and play your song, marching to the beat of your own drum… the risk is WORTH THE REWARD. I mean damn now I can save $2 on laundry.

Green Screens amiright