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being, motivation, peace, storytelling, youth

The River or The Rock

Posted on July 16, 2025 by tjoroski

My coffee tastes gross. Not enough creamer… too much water? Maybe this half-calf mushroom infused brew wasn’t the best idea, but I love the concept…so I’ll roll with it. Even though I’m not a huge fan, I love it. I love having coffee..even bad coffee. I love drinking bad coffee at work mid morning on a Thursday. I love it because of one reason: I can. I can have it. I can hate it. I have the opportunity to drink bad coffee on a Thursday at my wild job that pays me. That paycheck gives me my home, my food, my clothes. My home gives me space to exist imperfectly as I am.

We had a patient come into the clinic recently with quite an extraordinarily sad story. He had just recently lost his adult daughter to a sudden death and he lost his wife 18 months prior. I don’t tell you this to feel sorry, it is indeed horrific so empathy is natural. I am recalling this information for my blog because we as humans are often so caught up in the noise of our lives, we forget the reality of our human condition: we are human. Complex, ridiculous, silly, lovable, sometimes hate-able, ungrateful, wise, excitable, messy, beautiful people. One of the particular privileges of working in medicine is bearing witness to the human condition in a very vulnerable way. Most often, patients don’t want to be patients. So relinquishing control and allowing healthcare professionals to help is a special, intimate part of the medical world. When this intimacy unfolds, I often find one thing happens across the board– people just want to be heard and they just want to feel safe. So when I hear stories from folks similar to that of my patient, I am immediately humbled. It’s a challenge not to feel shameful or guilty for having anxieties, fears, or doubts about trivial aspects of life. A very large part of why I love my work in medicine is because I receive a daily invitation to remember my humility and the value of surrender.

Surrender has been a very large theme in my life as of late. I am learning quite a bit about being a sponge and absorbing the soapy crusty bits and pieces that life has to offer me. My patients are often in their 70s, 80s, 90s and even 100s!! I can’t help but pick their experienced brains and ask for advice. I often hear a lot of the same answers.

“Smile often. Just try to make the most of it.”

“Don’t ever take anything too serious!”

“You only get one life.”

“Eat chocolate. Drink wine. That’s how I made it to 105.”

“I’ll move until I can’t move anymore!”

“Don’t try to win ’em. There’s no point” (reference to arguing or picking battles)

“Just have fun.”

“We’re not perfect. Don’t try to be.”

Each encounter is a love letter. A gentle reminder that life is fluid, with a shit ton of ups and downs. When I hear stories that make me sad, it’s a harsh reminder that life is also short and fragile. It’s been an odd road–that of recognizing that all we’re guaranteed is the present moment. However, I am grateful. Grateful that I can recognize this. Grateful for the sweet sensation of surrender and the freedom that comes from not swimming upstream.

It’s not easy though. I’m still learning. There is also privilege in outwardly acknowledging surrender when something horrible isn’t happening, that is not lost on me. Especially in today’s climate where many of us are fighting for survival and surrender doesn’t even feel like an option.

When I think of surrender, I think of a complex river. There have been many times where I have been like a boulder in the middle, heavy and holding on for dear life. I feel like I just discovered a secret that somehow everyone else knew and I am just finding out. Like knowing to surrender and be present was a gift everyone received except me because I was absent that day. Practicing gratitude is a big part of what I try to practice on a daily basis, but I found out that it is a lot harder to receive if you can’t surrender and trust that things will be what they will be. It’s also important to note that there is wisdom in not trying to make something be what it simply isn’t.

So friends, my challenge to you is this. Find the good in your day today and take a small moment for gratitude—be grateful for your lame sandwich at lunch, the coffee that went cold, your mismatched socks, the ants in your kitchen, rain in the sky, the greeting from your pet, the book you are “almost finished with”… the list goes on. Human experience gives us good days and bad days. Both are real and exist, but it’s the bad days that remind us why the good days are good.

Xoxo,

Trinity

Look mom a RAINBOW!!!!! 🌈✨

motivation, peace

Haven’t you heard?

Posted on January 7, 2025 by tjoroski

My mind. Our mind. His mind. Her mind. Their mind. The mind.

Thinking thoughts that ache, that scream, that run on a hamster wheel of endless space and time. The more I think the more I spin, like I’m on one of those spinny rides at the playground that people fly off of.

I look at the clouds and I imagine what it feels like to eat one. What it would feel like to float through one, what that cold air might feel like on my skin. While Kaytranada plays in my right ear bud (left one is broken), I take a deep breath and feel the heaviness in my eyes. The weight of the day, the week, the month, the last year, this life. I feel my ankles tight under my legs connected to my feet. Tired from running laps around myself waiting for something to give. Waiting for someone to slow me down and stop me in my tracks. Then it happens.

The wheel breaks. The clouds make way for sun. The beat of the song picks up. The aches pause and I’m still. Looking to my right I see the world and everyone I love, looking to my left is the mirror where I see everything in my way right in front of me. I can’t look away, when I turn to my right again everyone points at me. Points at the mirror and then I understand. I grab the mirror, give it a smile and break it. I throw it out of my way and I start running. Freedom rings out from somewhere close by. Everyone who points at me runs with me. We cheer, we laugh, we cry.

The world as we know it will only change when we change first. When we let people be who they are. When we let them do what they will do. People change when they can and when they want to. No sooner. Acceptance of self means absorbing peace and harmony within. The war ends when the acknowledgment begins. Today, tomorrow or the day afterwards, we are free to step into our power as we relinquish control of what is completely out of our hands.

The belief we are enough, the joy we can not only have but also bring, the love we seek.. it’s been here the whole time. Haven’t you heard?

Xoxo,

Trinity

lost, peace, planning, youth

“Hate It Or Love It”

Posted on July 25, 2023July 25, 2023 by tjoroski

This is arguably by far the hardest, most challenging, uprooting, beautiful, heavy and confusing year of my life. I can say with UTTER and complete confidence that I have no f*cking idea what is going on. I am 26. Just 26 years young and 100% agree with the idea that your twenties are a hot train wreck from hell. There are so many silver linings and miracles within our youth. I have been blessed to the nines with some of the people I have met and the places I have been, yet there is this counter balance. This weight that is wrapped around your ankles, pulling you down. I am in this crazy space where I am free yet so stuck. Like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel but the tunnel is so damn long that I just keep running. Sweating, out of breath, thirsty, in pain.

This year my heart broke. This year my car broke (literally got into my second accident totaling my car once again). This year I went to Europe and fell in love with a new city. This year I got lost and not a single google maps search could save me from not knowing where my future lies. This year I realized my past stole from me— my money, my time and my love.

I am going to be 27 in November and Im f*cking terrified. Who will I meet? Where will I go? Can I afford to go there? Will my heart become whole again? Will I finally stop crying?? (LOL never). I just have no clue which way is up these days. I don’t know who’s right and who’s wrong. Ive never been so unsure in my entire life.

But you know what—I’m here. I’m here to find out. Everyday is the exact same but different. Everyday I wake up, anything can happen. I could run into 50 cent at the grocery store. I could win a cereal box sweepstakes. Maybe someone will discover me and I’ll become a famous blogger. Quite literally the world is my OYSTER (and I like oysters). So yes, I have been on the ride of my damn life, doing my best to stay positive and “keep my head up.” UGH can we be more original please!?

SO many questions, unanswered. ZERO sense of direction. No comprehension -anymore- of what I wanna be when I grow up. Sometimes I feel like I’m even going backwards and everyone else is moving forward past me. AND I KNOW how this sounds. This is literally my thoughts, my brain IS this blog. I write to stay alive. I write to feel strong. To connect, to stay grounded in something when everything else is just non existent or falling apart. And to be clear, this isn’t an invitation for sympathy. This is my platform to be me and all are welcome here. Plus I KNOW you people have shit you’re going through. We ALL do for f*cks sake.

With that being said though, I’m here. Im a person, a human. I write love letters to you and to myself with this blog. You’re not alone on this sinking ship. Lets keep bailing water out of this b*tch before *insert tasteless joke about millionaires and the deep sea*

xoxo

Trinity

motivation, peace, storytelling, youth

She said so.

Posted on June 2, 2023 by tjoroski

The power of voice. The power of her voice. Today I’m blogging about being loud, bold, empowered, and unapologetic.

As you all know, I write when stuff comes to mind, unfiltered and I basically say whatever the hell I think in my brain.

Today I felt inspired and I’ll tell you why. I am currently on an airplane back to the United States from Europe where I connected with friends- powerful female friendship is a force to be reckoned with! I wanted to shoutout female friendship and womanhood in general —so stick with me ladies (and gents if you made it here congrats you’re welcome to stay the support is always welcomed).

There are 100 billion trillion quadrobajillion opinions on what it means to be a woman in our UNTAMED world (super nice way to put it I know *pretends to vomit*). SO as per usual and to no one’s surprise, I’ll tell you mine.

To be a woman is to have your own f*cking opinion on whatever the hell that means. To be a woman is to roll your eyes and flip the bird at whoever comes at you sideways when they think they know you better than you know yourself. To be a woman means that “you do you girl”- spoken by a fellow female powerhouse.

I’m loud, I cuss a lot, I get sweaty, angry, b*tchy, hot headed. Sometimes I snort when I laugh, I f*cking HATE loading and unloading the dishwasher, I’m bad at doing laundry, my cooking is ass and tbh I rather get my nails done than buy necessary things like toilet paper (I’m working on it). ON THE CONTRARY I make people laugh, I’m devoted to my craft, I’ll never give up on the people who make my world go round, I’m a ride or die friend, my hair is dyed red, and I’m really good at using the microwave and getting dressed up to go out somewhere. I’m always working on what it means to live and breathe MY divine feminine energy.

She’s powerful. She doesn’t take sh*t, she’s loud. She is always learning and loving. Figuring out how to be sexy for her. She’s a woman and she has a voice.

My friends and the women in my life are my light. Strong, loving, decision makers and caregivers. In this world with so many rules, nuances, bullsh*t laws, unspoken code, and unwelcomed opinions…we have one another. Together we are a force that gives the world momentum like a gravitational pull that never stops. If you don’t like something say it. If you don’t agree with something, then don’t agree b*tch!

Your voice is everything. Her voice is everything. Lift each other up and fight for your sh*t. From personal experience and a TON of learning and self work, never be afraid to be a loud ass woman. In todays soap opera of a society, we gotta be louder baby. So I challenge you this my friends: next time you’re with your friend or a woman you care about #1 tell her she’s fine as hell OBVIOUSLY and #2 embrace your muthaf*ckin WOMAN POWER.

Cheers to living as you want. I’ll be back in America at my local rage room spreading the love. Merci!!🇫🇷

TITS UP LADIES🔥💯💋

lost, motivation, peace, planning, storytelling, youth

CALL 911 IM TRYING SOMETHING NEW

Posted on April 20, 2023April 19, 2023 by tjoroski

Yo yo yo!!!! It’s ya girl back with a new episode of “WTF IS SHE DOING WITH HER LIFE” 🙂

So yes. Here we go. I am officially an Emergency Medical Technician student! I am so stoked. I decided to hit pause on getting my masters as a Physician Assistant and get more experience learning and hopefully doing some dope and crazy sh*t!!! I’m a little nervous but I know it’s the right thing because for some odd reason I am DRAWN TO THE CHAOS and I wanna help.

The thing is: this is the first time in over a year where I feel genuinely confident that I am 1000% where I am supposed to be. It doesn’t feel like a waste of time and I am so eager to learn. Ya know when you do something and it just feels right? Like nothing in your body is telling you otherwise. It’s a good feeling and I’ll admit it’s a foreign one too. I am a firm believer in working the system until you find the right fit. As an adult, I’ve always known that healthcare is for me, but I’ve had SO MANY jobs that didn’t feel “right” and this new adventure FINALLY feels correct like it clicked.

I would also like to point out that working with like minded people is such a valuable thing. Everyone in my class is a little cray cray because not only do we wanna be front line, we actually find joy in chaotic places where we feel we can make an actual difference. If you follow my blog, you know I have had a lot of ups and downs in my career/job life so writing this now is quite a revelation for me LOL.

The main reason I wanted to share my news with you all is because I have learned that No matter what, no matter how f*cking CORNY it sounds…DO NOT GIVE UP. Not on yourself, not on your dreams, not on your gut feelings etc. stick to it baby. What you put it is what you get out. You are the one that will take yourself to new heights but only if you actually BELIEVE you can reach them. I know I know it sounds lowkey stupid lol but take it from a b*tch who hasn’t had the most clear and direct/easy path to where she is now. It’s been one hell of a ride and it’s honestly just starting. Maybe in 3 years I’ll be a medic overseas makin’ dough, saving lives and sippin margs (off duty of course). IDK BUT I BELIEVE IT B*TCH.

So with this I say: visualize it. Breathe it. Even if you aren’t sure wtf is going on. Pick a feeling and roll with it like the damn tides babe. If you’re like “hmmm idk I like teaching and I like yoga and I like warm weather” then maybe try yoga teaching. If you love animals and like talking a lot then go hang out at the zoo and look at their job openings idk. But understand this: there are options and there is a pathway. This blog is for those of us who have had a rough go at finding it… but sis… it’s f*cking there you just have to go get it!

Wear green and share this post 10 times and you’ll be rich by next Wednesday.

lost, motivation, peace, youth

2022 Hate Mail💌

Posted on January 1, 2023December 31, 2022 by tjoroski

If you laughed this year, you also cried.

If you cried a lot, you probably laughed a little mostly at yourself.

Surrounded by hot and cold, up and down.

Yes or no? Maybe, could be, should I?

Moving forwards isn’t easy, especially when today reminds you of yesterday.

Or when tomorrow is too scary to think about today.

No matter what though, tomorrow is always there.

No matter what year it is, the good days exist.

So, 2022 I say to you, You are yesterday.

And to 2023, you are my good year.

Issa love/hate kinda thing.

lost, motivation, peace, storytelling, youth

SOS

Posted on December 31, 2022 by tjoroski

I have never ever felt more “untethered,” lost, unbound, unwound or weirded out in my whole 26 year old mf’ing LIFE. But it’s ok! And I’ll explain lol.

The ONLY tangible shit keeping me afloat is the fact that SZA is going on tour in March and I MIGHT BE ABLE TO AFFORD IT? IDK remains to be seen. ANYWAYS, people its time to post some thoughts as this INSANE and wild year of 2022 is finally at its close.

A close friend of mine asked me, “how would you describe your year in a few words.” THAT is a F************cking QUESTION! Here’s what I said: complex, confusing, challenging and bittersweet.

Not exactly a chipper description. However, its just honest. I had some killer good times and incredible highlights truly. Going places I’ll never forget and living unforgettable moments. SO with that, let’s start with what we learned this year (‘we’ being me and my good friend anxiety).

This year I learned more than anything: HUMILITY AND WHAT IT MEANS TO BE MORE HUMBLE. This statement is crucial to personal growth because sometimes you have a plan and then life says f*ck YOU i don’t think so! and then you’re slapped in the face with redirecting and reevaluating your life (as my wise old man would say). Having gone through MANY ups and downs, career changes and jobs this year on top of PA school rejections, has truly made me stop and smell the ✨new pathway to idk where✨In all seriousness, I learned the importance of: being okay with TAKING AN L (for those of you who don’t relate to this slang it simply means ‘being ok with taking a loss’ such as not achieving your dreams or something lol). ✌🏼

NEXT UP: HOW TO HUSTLE FOR MY GAWDDAMN MONEY. This one is near and dear to my heart (far from my wallet) because this is the big year that I not only came off moms tit (and her kush insurance plan) BUT was so in between jobs that I had to hustle and grind just to keep myself afloat in more ways than one. I worked to discover local resources, side hustles and budgeting tactics. Delivery driving, donating plasma and working part time at a karaoke bar wasn’t glamorous but it kept my ass wiped and I had food on the table. THAT BEING SAID: this next year is all about struggling less. However, there is beauty in the struggle. I learned a lot about how to survive and take care of sh*t.

FINALLY: I leaned into my strengths. I tried new things (hip hop dance specifically, I still royaly suck at cooking) and gained confidence. I worked to better myself and find out more about what I want and deserve. Quite honestly folks, sometimes just seeing some growth in yourself such as this is enough to feel proud of yourself. NEVER FORGET to recognize your growth and achievements no matter how small you think they are. We are always evolving and thus far i think that is literally the key to life.

SO NOW we get to the good shit👏🏽WTF are my resolutions or whatever???

In truth, I’m very proud as they are really realistic and tangible things. When making your resolution list (if you are someone who does this whether its written or mentally noted), MAKE 100% SURE they are things you can realistically accomplish. My blog was on my list for 2022 and check it out YOU are reading MY words! 🤪

Here are 5 real items from my list that I chose after reflecting on my year:

1 Get my EMT certification

2 take a self defense class

3 start my Spanish classes

4 learn to not lash out when struggling emotionally

5 start new creative project

Now this isn’t my full list, some of the other sh*t is aligned with emotional & spiritual growth but here’s the thing. Taking hold of tangible goals and working to bring them to fruition will allow you to grow naturally. As we overcome obstacles and do things, we create space for learning and growth (as I discuss in previous posts), 2022 has confirmed this for me more than any other year of life. DO NOT GIVE UP. Yes, its corny but our goals, strengths, ideas, and gifts give us purpose for each year, each day and each moment. We are here and we are now. Our goals and resolutions, our tomorrow….it all matters, regardless of how f*cking dumb the world is acting (throwback moment to the Will Smith bitchslap making national news only to be followed by the Roe v Wade global DISASTER….you KNOW i could pull a million trillion other examples🙄).

In closing, I want to say THANK YOU💖 Thank you for my readers, my supporters and my listeners. Y’all give me hope and strength, you give me purpose to keep writing my heart out and I am forever grateful for this platform to be me, who I truly am. SO I challenge you my readers to raise your wine, sprite, non-alcoholic beer, kombucha or ice water to 2023. Maybe we make this year our b*tch because we could seriously use just a really f*cking good solid ass year.

Going into 2023 with dirty sock energy🤡

lost, motivation, peace, planning, youth

Nose dive…? Jump? Idk I can’t smell shit.

Posted on October 24, 2022October 23, 2022 by tjoroski

Allergy szn b*tchesssss!! In a dramatic turn of events, I am channeling my PA program rejections (4 out, 4 to go) into proactive energy working at at karaoke bar making significantly less money!!! Yay!!!! Who knew. Life has been this: applied for schools, left my BULLSH*T medical assistant job, was denied unemployment benefits, anddddd became a hostess ayeeeeee…

It’s been land of the lost, limbo narnia, unsure nation 2.0… BUT I do have a new addiction called “DoorDashing.” LOL. Literally it is saving my ass and paying my credit card minimums 10/10 recommend (Instacart can suck a d*ck). SO YEAH, here we are a month shy of me losing my parents insurance benefits for good and here I am sniffling as the leaves change, checking IDs and trying not to eat my weight in free chicken nuggets. It’s definitely spooky season bc I’m scared lol.

It’s been a trying time of accepting the present moment and trying my best to find peace WITHIN IT AHHH *practice what you preach.* So, ya know I’ve had time to process things that have happened while being 25 years young. I’ve been able to walk my dog longer, catch up on tv, read a lil (like a tiny teeny bit), see my friends, manicure my man’s eyebrows, wash my hair more often etc. The silver lining here is time. Time doesn’t pay the bills but it is priceless. This period of my life is the much needed slow down I’ve been desperate for.

Moving forward I feel this: my right now moments lead into my tomorrow moments and everything can change at any moment. Things haven’t necessarily gone my way for a higher purpose, like annoying, but I get it. I mean I’ve been given the gift of time and sleep which is more than I’ve been able to have in awhile. I’m learning how to value myself in ways I didn’t recognize before. So friends, I raise my hard kombucha today for the good sake of tomorrow and what it will bring. I challenge you all to do the same!

She forgot her Gucci flip flops but time is on her side 😤

#yoga, motivation, peace, planning, youth

Sink or Swim? 🫠

Posted on September 27, 2022October 25, 2022 by tjoroski

Are you a meticulous planner? Do you think wayyyy ahead and then freak out over things that haven’t happened yet? Or are you always present and just go with the flow?? Well guess what folks! You are in the right place and this is the blog post for you!! ALL FOR (almost) FREE!! ….just the small fee of continuing to read my word vomit is required 🙂

SO yes yes yes I have once again been inspired by my own chaos–woohoo! Its funny how most creatives get inspiration from their own bullshit lol I digress. BUT on todays episode of “Coffeeshopvibes AKA i dont know shit i just write what i feel” my question to you is this: Is it wise to plan ahead and consider the “what-ifs” or maybes of life? We do it because we’re literally human and usually we have to otherwise what tf to we have to look forward to?? (or is that just me lol).

Lately a lot has been happening. Good and not so good but mostly its aight. Haven’t heard back from PA schools yet, quit my shitty job and got a better one (at a karaoke bar LMAO thats on brand for me), and consistently contemplating the quantum physical f*cksh*t that is life. ANYWAYS, if there is one thing that is on my mind more than ramen noodles, its the impending unknown of the ~fUtUrE~… I plan everything. Well most things. Im a sticky note queen, in college I had like 3 planners and I utilize the reminders app on my phone + my google calendar like my life depends on it (which technically for me it does lol).

In some cases, this is a good thing! I stay busy, I consider myself organized and it helps bring structure to my life. BUT I am also a work in progress trying to unlearn certain behaviors that aren’t as healthy. For example, throughout my adult life it has been very challenging for me to be present. Going with the flow and taking things as they come is scary bc I like too know the future so I can control the outcome which is TOXIC energy that requires work to change.

Through therapy and supportive relationships, I have learned it can be dangerous to harp on whats coming. We naturally create expectations for things that have not occurred yet or perhaps may never happen, good or bad. We try to guarantee things will go our way by constantly talking about them, planning them, thinking about them and then when the time comes, we hope it’s everything we mapped out in our heads. When it’s not, we can become sad, depressed or just frustrated as hell. The truth is, this is happening a lot, within most of us no matter who you are.

As per usual my go to sanctuary has been my yoga practice (and new found love for hip-hop dancing ayooo), and today the intention set for class by the instructor was quite literally, exactly what I needed to hear and understand: “When we achieve and accept the present moment, we can find peace. The present moment might not be peaceful, but with acceptance we can find peace within it.”

This SHOOK me to my core in the best way, here I was mountain posing my way out of tiredness and anxiety when she dropped this wisdom bomb. The idea behind this message is the reality that all of us face. She was basically stating this: although we have so much BS around us and on us at all times, and although we are constantly thinking about our tomorrow or our lunch hour or whatever— if we take a moment to breathe in what we are experiencing at the present, we can accept and be ok where we are.

There is something to be said about present-ness and focus. In yoga, shavasana pose (the one where you just lay flat on the ground), is arguably one of the hardest poses there is. That is because you are challenged to be still and present. Challenged to drown out intrusive thinking by focusing on ones breathing. Its f*cking hard okay?? BUT it tests you, just like life does 24/7 365 billion days a year. AND its all practice, practice makes perfect.

SO my challenge to you AND to myself, is to practice being present. Practice going with the flow, focus on your own 2 feet and how you’re about to walk to the kitchen for a snack, then focus on the deliciousness of that snack and be in that moment, because that moment IS guaranteed. Plus, who doesn’t love a snack that is guaranteed to be delicious??

dance, motivation, youth

Yo DJ Play My Song

Posted on July 29, 2022July 28, 2022 by tjoroski

YOOOOO! Big news. Just arrived at manifestation station. Im moving!.. to a different part of town LOL.

I literally stood in the center of my 5×5 apartment and literally felt the ick. I was cringing and overwhelmed about how much sh*t I have. But thats when I realized, “oh wait, I dont have that much sh*t, my apartment is just suited for someone who doesnt dream of a walk in closet with a table and chairs.” TBH Its been a long time coming. Three years in a downtown metro, three years of bums at my door, no peephole and a peeping tom neighbor. Thats a long f*cking time to have no dishwasher and praying I make it back from the basement every time I wash my d e l i c a t e s for $1.75 in communo washer/dryer🤮.

I am the type of person who gets uncomfortable with something and then wants to change it instantaneously. A GO GETTER? if you will lmao. I cannot stand in one space for too long looking at the same thing or doing the same things whether it be mentally, emotionally or physically. Thats why Ive lived in many places and had so many jobs (well that and the fact my managers have been nothing short of bullsh*t). Its why I like medicine bc it can be LOCA but Im down for the ride. So even though Ive been at my place for about 3 (thousand) years, Im always on the hunt ready for my next “thing.”

I will say tho, Im proud of myself ya know? It takes a lot as a young, stupid, adult to MOVE. I mean over the years Ive had to learn what a change of address is and how your billing address is connected to your debit card and if you dont change that when you move then your bills get f*cked. OR OR OR how you need renters insurance and an electric company for power and wifi and *heavy breathing*

Im also working on finding a new…j o b…..LOLOLOL. Yes again.. I just. I cant..idk. Like finding a new job and place to enjoy before PA school (should I even get in 🤞🏼), seems crazy no? But then again, its literally MY journey. I will change anything and everything I want to for however long if it makes ME happy. We are truly the cReAtOrS oF oUr OwN dEsTiNy😂 but fr fr I want a better quality of life so, b*tch you had best believe Im gonna GO GET IT………. regardless of how broke I might be later.

Its entirely a leap of faith as most things are. But if we cant trust ourselves and take risks, then WTF are we even doing? So if you need a change and youre worried, anxious, scared, night sweats, ugly crying, hyperventilating then SIS take it from me: when you take charge and play your song, marching to the beat of your own drum… the risk is WORTH THE REWARD. I mean damn now I can save $2 on laundry.