My mind. Our mind. His mind. Her mind. Their mind. The mind.
Thinking thoughts that ache, that scream, that run on a hamster wheel of endless space and time. The more I think the more I spin, like I’m on one of those spinny rides at the playground that people fly off of.
I look at the clouds and I imagine what it feels like to eat one. What it would feel like to float through one, what that cold air might feel like on my skin. While Kaytranada plays in my right ear bud (left one is broken), I take a deep breath and feel the heaviness in my eyes. The weight of the day, the week, the month, the last year, this life. I feel my ankles tight under my legs connected to my feet. Tired from running laps around myself waiting for something to give. Waiting for someone to slow me down and stop me in my tracks. Then it happens.
The wheel breaks. The clouds make way for sun. The beat of the song picks up. The aches pause and I’m still. Looking to my right I see the world and everyone I love, looking to my left is the mirror where I see everything in my way right in front of me. I can’t look away, when I turn to my right again everyone points at me. Points at the mirror and then I understand. I grab the mirror, give it a smile and break it. I throw it out of my way and I start running. Freedom rings out from somewhere close by. Everyone who points at me runs with me. We cheer, we laugh, we cry.
The world as we know it will only change when we change first. When we let people be who they are. When we let them do what they will do. People change when they can and when they want to. No sooner. Acceptance of self means absorbing peace and harmony within. The war ends when the acknowledgment begins. Today, tomorrow or the day afterwards, we are free to step into our power as we relinquish control of what is completely out of our hands.
The belief we are enough, the joy we can not only have but also bring, the love we seek.. it’s been here the whole time. Haven’t you heard?
Xoxo,
Trinity
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