Have you ever caught a glimpse of your own reflection and it made you stop and think for a sec? Maybe you thought, “wow I look great!” or “wow I look like sh*t” or maybe “man wtf am I doing??”… because I have. In fact it happened today as I was walking the dog in the rain.
I caught a glimpse of myself and it made me stop and stare. And I liked what I saw. I saw a girl trying to grow. Trying her best to grow and just let go. Let go of all things past, all things negative, all things that take away from my life. In this fall season that is my theme. I intend to release myself of old expectations and pain that has only held me back for ages. Kind of like a reptile or a invertebrate (ew thats the bio major talking lmao) I want to shed my old skin. To step out of that shell and feel new again.
I love fall because its a refresh, it brings to cooler weather and the rain. The leaves fall and the wind picks up. The colors are gorgeous and the vibes are unmatched. Its almost like new air from somewhere else has made its way here. All the way to me.
It helps with letting go–the fall season I mean. I guess its fair to say that I am changing as the seasons do. I am learning to feel myself again, unlearn bad habits and trust the way forward. Its not easy, definitely spooky, and a little bit rough. YET it doesnt have to be perfect or linear (nothing ever is), the only requirement is forward momentum.
Letting go of anything is a mother*cking art form. Its extremely uncomfortable and feels like when you have to set a bone after it breaks in a really awkward way. I am currently in the process of leaving behind some heavy, heavy emotions. Emotions and feelings that have run my life and have made my life exponentially harder than it needs to be. It has been hard to take chances, trust, explore, and just have a clear mind. I haven’t had a clear mind with no chitter chatter in the background in YEARS. I’ve been telling myself to shutup when what I really want is to tell myself is to “LET IT OUT B*TCH.”
Finding peace is honestly what we all want. Love and money would be nice yes, but just having peace to exist without so much DRAMA or anxiousness, doubt or FEAR!? Yeah that would be f*cking great. So that is my current mission this fall season. Finding peace by letting go of ALL OF IT.
So cheers friends, I encourage you to find your mission this season, keep the promises you make to yourself and never forget if it doesnt work today, there’s always tomorrow.
xoxo,
Trin ☕️🍂
I AM THE APPLE OF MY OWN EYE DAMMIT💋😉🍎
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