SO, what do you do when you’re craving lemonade but life gives you prune juice? Or when the universe chews you up and spits you out in a direction you NEVER saw coming? You read this blog thats what you do LOL JK real talk though, we’re gonna work through it together because the obvious answer is “i dont know either.”
If you have read my blog posts in the past, you might gather that I have been a “5 year plan type of gal” who is now realizing she’s an “Im not sure what is happening this afternoon” type of girl. I have been working through the idea that everything I thought I was going to be doing is honestly not at all what I actually like doing lol. I got rejected from PA school and realized that dream was not a dream at all, but a safe idea. NOW we’re halfway through school to get my EMT certification, trying to find remote work, writing my blog posts and trying so hard to find an online side hustle (which seems so freakin easy on social media but is definitely harder than it looks!!).
Not to mention, some of my relationships are sailing through the storm right now so naturally a quarter life career crisis continues to be wildly appropriate.
Here’s the thing: life is already a b*tch. Emotionally, spiritually, physically, mentally…..its like running a marathon without any water stations and you have to go to the bathroom really bad but still have 11.5 miles to go.
I am realizing that what I thought I wanted to be and wanted to do, was something I was *trying* to love. It wasn’t coming naturally. None of it. I thought that because it is what I have known and what I have been good at, that I should continue to pursue it (“it” being higher education in healthcare to be a provider). Even in my day to day as a medical assistant, I keep trying to sell myself the idea that healthcare is my home. I do like it and would like to find my niche, but what if my niche is something entirely different? It can also be hard because there are people around me and in my life that have found their niche. I feel happy for them but can’t help thinking….when will I find my passion? What does it look like? Where will it take me? Will it keep me financially secure? Will I love it???
When it comes to work, I have traded A LOT of my time for money, I have worked MANY jobs and given MANY MANY hours of my life to my employers. Don’t get me wrong, I am grateful and have had good opportunity, but at this time, I want more. I want to be successful and happy without losing myself in my job and that can be a really hard thing to do when you have bills to pay and need to survive. To find a passion and a niche where I can make money AND keep my mental health out of the toilet is a D R E A M✨
So, pivoting away from a specific job and a future that will provide job security, money and stability for the sake of being happy and finding something really worth my time and energy is…….F*CKING TERRIFYING. Not to mention, this idea that we don’t have to do everything the boomers did, is still new. There are so many options for work, money, success etc. Its all evolving and I am trying to keep up while maintaining practicality and a budget lol.
In true CoffeeShopVibes fashion, I say this: if you are in this space where you have literally no idea which way the wind is gonna blow but your sails are up, then we should be friends because we’re on the same boat. The boat may have some duct tape covering the holes because thats all we can afford right now but she’s still floating.
ANYWAYS Happy Summer friends, I hope its going well and although the planet is dying and everything is a mess, let’s remember to give thanks to the good days and good vibes 🌼🌞
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