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#RIP my “fun” years?

SO. You’re here! Amazing. This is my version of risk. I’m 25. I’m blogging. I started this in a coffee shop during what I consider my “quarter life crisis.” Let me back up. I graduated undergrad in 2019 with plans to pursue PA school (physician assiatant school), which is kinda like Med school except your mental health has a fighting chance. Then I went into the work force as a medical assistant. BOOM. COVID destroyed the world. 2022 is here and now IDK what the f*ck is going on. Hence: quarter life crisis mode is full speed ahead.

I am in a long term relationship. I’m on my third round of Invisalign/braces. I have a coffee addiction (no really, I get headaches). What smells like it died? Oh yeah, my finances. BUT, given the weird shit and exhausting day to day of being a confused “in-between-er” (between kid and adult I think?), there is GOOD.

I have a dog. A cute ass dog. My friends are dope, all 2.5 of them (JOKING, I love u all). My parents like pot and my sister is an artist (I’ll plug her info later). I LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH in Portland OR! The “weirdest” place on Earth (not our greatest achievement but whatever makes us stand out I guess). Anyways, there is happiness in the lull of this strange decade.

HOWEVER HERES MY ISSUE: Everyone keeps telling me that my 20s are supposed to be this amazing time to explore and have all this freedom and Im so young so I should be happy and carefree!! BUT ALSO find a secure career path, a proper home, lasting love (and babies, range rovers, green smoothies and planter boxes I built myself) and I guess eat right?? It’s a lot. This ideal assumes that everyones circumstances and situations are all the same like a “one-size-fits all,” but thats just not true. I did (or kind of do??) have a plan. The plan was to finish all my pre-reqs and then go off to PA school, graduate, find a job and then idk marriage or something some day.

I read this amazing article that argues that the pandemic has made people realize that the idea of “dream job” is dead– and we’re better off prioritizing our own lives over our nine-to-fives. This feels more true than ever. PA school has been a dream for the last few years but now that I’m in a position to actually shoot my shot, I’m questioning whether or not the huge undertaking (mentally, financially and physically) is actually what I want (let alone need) right now.

Bottom line: being 25 simply isn’t all glam. Im not traveling around the world, I don’t have tons of money and I am struggling with my career, relationships, habits. I just think young people (and people in general) forget that we have our entire lives to grow and change and be who we desire to be. It doesn’t have to come to fruition before we hit 30, unlike society says. Sh*t, I don’t really know what to do with my life so I started a blog? LOL.

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BLOGGING??? Lol never thought I would but always wanted to!

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